Not going to lie, I'm probably one of the biggest egroters ever. Which always made it hard for me when I was in high school, when I was really ill, everyone was always skeptical. But now I'm incredibly sick, and it seems to border on the amoung to time I used to egrote... so many people just don't believe. It makes me feel stupid and regret the past. P.S. Team America ... best drollic movie ever! P.S.S. I suck at diffibulating a certain boys pants, and I'm sick of him getting slightly aggrevated with me about it. Don't wear THOSE pants, and we'd be fine... besides i think it's fun .. it's a challenge, and it makes me giggle ... I'll get it. So early today someone actually called me crassulent. I don't think I've ever heard that word used in everyday conversation, and instead of feeling hurt and embarassed, I was kind of elated that I knew that word, and that someone had used it in a sentence... does that make me pathetic? Ho hum ... oh well..... Sleep now. Pants. :) I love that boy.

20 Questions to a Better Relationship

eXpressive: 4/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 9/10

You are a RSIG--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a People-Pleaser.

Oh, RSIG! You are the most complicated and dynamic of any type. You are brilliant, tender, romantic and a joy to be with. You're the favorite of many of your friends. It's just not a party until you get there. You are bursting with feeling and sentiment and insight but you very rarely express it -- it's not how you want to present yourself to the world. Although you are always studying your non-romantic relationships -- you turn a blind eye to romantic relationships.

You're highly adaptable, and you conform to your circumstances (maybe you're a youngest child?). You would probably be content with almost anyone, and almost anyone would be blissfully happy to have you. But just because you're content doesn't mean you're happy. Don't settle!

You'd rather ignore your problems than rock the boat by creating conflict. Please understand that in the long run ignoring conflict will make you unhappy and your partner exhausted. Try picking a fight just to see how it goes. You'll find out that solving problems is so satisfying for you that it makes conflict worth it.

Your sex life could be fantastic if you could stop worrying about everything so much (did I wash my hands? how do I look? what do I need to do tomorrow?). You need a sweet, expressive lover who makes you feel at ease and never puts pressure on you. If you feel secure with your partner outside the bedroom, it will make all the difference.

You cry at movies. A lot.

Of the 219059 people who have taken this quiz, 5.6 % are this type.

Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing, staring, out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into me and you

Kiss me fool if you care
If your words have better meaning
Playing it cool is so unfair
Why this veil of secrecy?
God forbid, friends found out what we did
Why can’t someone like you be with someone like me?

Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing staring out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into Me and You.

Touch me fool if you’re allowed
I’ll be dancing in the corner
It’s so cruel to play it proud
Take your hands and cover me
I’m aware that all in love is fair
But that’s no reason to make me feel this way

Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing, staring, out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into me and you

And it hurts me so bad to deny it
These feelings are out of control
Do you know what its like to want something so bad?
And than, having to let it go
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
So soon will be in the past
And this game of pretending and playing it cool
Never knowing, never knowing,
Never knowing what we should have had!

Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
You’ve go me wondering if I’m
Good enough?
Pretty enough?
Giving enough?
Special enough?
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Who should I be?
Who should I be?
To make you love me

Monica & Matt
Laura & Matt
Amanda & Cameron

Okay, not really a reanactment... more of a script from last night's phone conversation (do tell me if this makes sense to anyone): Boy: You should really ask him out tomorrow. Ask him to just try it. I have a feeling good things will happen. You're good for him. Girl: You think I should ask him out? I thought I was the only with silly ideas like that! But it won't happen, so why get my hopes up? Boy: Because what if it works? What if he wants to? What if he's waiting for you to make the first move? You know you like aggressive girls. Girl: Yeah , in bed... lol ... probably not in life. Boy: Heh, just do it, if not for yourself for me. Girl: Fine. What have a got to lose? Oh yeah, my dignity and self respect... to to mention his friendship when I make things weird. Boy: *sigh* So can I come over tomorrow? Girl: Well I'll be with him. Boy: Not all day, he is going to dinner. Can I come over then? Girl: Sure, why what's up? Boy: We can do naughty things. Girl: Are you being serious or kidding. I can never tell with you. Boy: Serious.... can I come over? Okay... why this doesn't make sense: Ask this boy out ... but fuck with me. Within a matter of hours of each other..... lol.....hello and welcome to my world... friends who really true care, as long as the get what they want in return.... oh brother.... lol (Not completely word for word, some phrasing and names have neen changed to protect the not so innocent involved) NicHole

I'm in love. You're confused, and I fell off your radar screen a long time ago..... here friend (the word is bittersweet) here is my shoulder for you to cry on, forgive me if I cry with you.

Happiness!!

I got to talk to Nick today.... sigh... I love that kid so much, and miss him even more.. if you can imagine. He and Courtney are doing very well, which puts me in a very good mood. So, all those in favor of taking a trip to Ohio this summer, lemme know... we ARE going to go!

Let's see, well things in the new digs with Travis are good thus far. It's nice to actually come home, or know that someone you know and care about is comming home to you. Much better than the feeling of loneliness I get in the Oshkosh apartment with the Yahoos that live here.

My birthday, overall was uneventful. Yay for the cast singing me Happy Birthday in pretty harmonies. Even bigger cheer for sitting in the middle of the apostles for the last supper, and being surrounded by boys who can sing, and who sing harmonies.... yay for Paul, Tommy, Spencer, Travis, Kyle, the foreign kid (I can't believe I forgot his name), and whatever other boys were singing pretty.

My birthday party was interesting, thank you to everyone that came... I love catch phrase!

Last night was tons-o-fun. Perkins with Laura, Amanda, Cameron, Paul, and Travis.... then making Dirt Cake... yummy!!! Okay question: when you eat dirt cake... made with chocolate or vanilla pudding? Lemme know.

We watched Old School. Funny movie.... okay Paul, I admitted it, it was funny, it made me laugh... it wasn't stupid.. I was wrong... lol

Jake, nice guy.... hope he stays that way.

Tonight, I'll hopefully be hanging out with Spencer... and then after Travis' class, we are gonna make buttered noodles and Texas Garlic Toast for dinner... maybe eat some left over dirt cake for dessert....mmMMmm

I'm fighting the urge to make you the happiest man on earth tonight.

NicHole

Thanks for all the information, Nichole!
Now for the bad news--at this time, there are no people signed up for either event on March 5. I just talked to someone at the Girl Scouts, and the events will be officially cancelled tomorrow. I'll send you a confirmation of that after I get it from Brinsen.
Karen
Karen Klamczynski
Barlow Planetarium Director
University of Wisconsin-Fox Valley

So, right before I took my geology test on Friday the prof walked up to me and said "Good Luck. No one has ever passed my test without coming to class before." So it then became my goal to get a D and rub it on her face. Well, grades came back today.... i totally got a 76%... but that's not all, the class average was a 68% .... I win prof... I win.

Yeah, that made me smile abundantly. Unfortunately Jospeh is now over. It was actually a really good show. I was content with it. I can't wait for JCS to start.... on Sunday for me, seeing as I have Girl Scouts on Saturday.... speaking of which.... is anyone able and willing to work Saturday March 5th 12 - 4 at the museum? It would make me very happy.

Speaking of this weekend.... guess what else happens this weekend? ..... Yeah, I turn 22. Happy Bithday to me on Sunday.... hopefully there will be some sort of get together Saturday night. If you have free, let me know....

Ummm, my room is a mess, worst it's ever been. I didn't go to class today, because was going to clean it, then I didn't, so I pretty much wasted a whole day. I e-mailed Karen about the Girl Scout prgram this weekend, I set up my printer, and now I need to go shower so that I can leave for work and work 4:30 to close at barnes and Noble... and await for the arrival of Tommy and Travis, who are suppose to come and visit me tonight.

OMG! So it is currently 3:20 in the AM and I am still awake for one reason, and one reason only.... fucking Lindsay Williams. I bunch of us were sleeping over at Spencer's house tonight, and that girl just won't shut up. I don't think she knows how to. She just kept whispering.... the fact of the matter is, I could hear her when my eyes were shut ... and I swear to god that is my worst nightmare. Then the whispers about Paul and Travis started... now I have three male "best" friends, and those two are two of them... and I wasn't about to sit there and listen to this dumb bitch trash talk my friends, who I love dearly, while I was attempting to sleep.. which I couldn't do because she just wouldn't stop talking... and her voice.. ugh.... and her giggle... "Eric, come sleep with me, leave Nichole, come sleep with me and Kyle" .. I finally told Eric to just go over there, hoping it would make her shut up.... nope. So I got up and left. I got up, got my shit, got in my car with my very foggy contacts, seeing double, and left, so I could come home, rant about it here, and then actually get some sleep..... and maybe since she isn't here talking incessantly I won't have nightmares about her.

Lindsay is a lot like me on certain levels. 1) she likes to talk ... but even I shut up now and then. 2) She knows everything there is to know about everything .... but unlike me Lindsay always uses her powers (which is what that is) for evil, instead of good. Atleast I don't try and blackmail people and try to gossip enough to ruin lives and friendships, and just cause drama to no end. 3) she's fat..... but she looks pregnant and doesn't dress to flatter herself at all. I know I'm fat, but I'm built differently than her, and I don't dress in clothes that draw attention to the fact that my boobs and my stomach stick out the same distance .....

.... I don't hate Lindsay I'm just really super fucking annoyed with her right now, and almost wish she would just go away. Please lord, don't let me ever get that bad. And if I am .. somebody shoot me. I don't ever want to annoy anyone as much as she annoys me. GO AWAY! and leave people to their own lives.

Sorry, I'm just super super duper tired, and have a lot of pent up rage directed toward that girl. Now that I've blown off steam, maybe I won't kill her tomorrow. Eh, I'll probably delete this in the morning anyway.

NicHole

So last night Tommy came over and attacked my underwear. Then we read people's online confessions. Some of the highlights: I pee in the shower. I can't stop thinking of a big juicy steak. Whenever I see east indian people I get hungry because they smell so damn yummy..... People like this actually exist? It was a good laugh.