Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing, staring, out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into me and you
Kiss me fool if you care
If your words have better meaning
Playing it cool is so unfair
Why this veil of secrecy?
God forbid, friends found out what we did
Why can’t someone like you be with someone like me?
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing staring out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into Me and You.
Touch me fool if you’re allowed
I’ll be dancing in the corner
It’s so cruel to play it proud
Take your hands and cover me
I’m aware that all in love is fair
But that’s no reason to make me feel this way
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can’t you see me standing, staring, out from a distance,
Hear my cry if you’d only listen
Out of focus into me and you
And it hurts me so bad to deny it
These feelings are out of control
Do you know what its like to want something so bad?
And than, having to let it go
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
So soon will be in the past
And this game of pretending and playing it cool
Never knowing, never knowing,
Never knowing what we should have had!
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
You’ve go me wondering if I’m
Good enough?
Pretty enough?
Giving enough?
Special enough?
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Who should I be?
Who should I be?
To make you love me
Monica & Matt
Laura & Matt
Amanda & Cameron
Paul & Kristin
Abby Suttner & Brett A. are engaged to be married
Nick & Courtney
Ed & Jess
....................... I'm lonely................... I don't get the &............ and I don't get my friends anymore cause everyone is busy with the & partner........ I'm not angry, or bitter..... just lonely.... and heartbroken ..... those not busy with an & partner are too focused on finding one, that I'm just an after thought most of the time...... Maybe it's time to go back to the bottle? I give up. I'm sick of fighting to still know even a sliver of who my friends are, who they have become while so busy with life that I've been pushed to the back burner. I'm something to do when there's nothing better..... why can't I ever be that something better? Why am I always second string?
meh, such is life I guess.....
I thought I knew you guys, I thought some of us had rekindled friendships, and regained trust, and started a new the week pre and during JCS.... but now that it's over, and I'm not in your face at rehearsal, I'm quickly forgotten again. And for someone who has a totally lack of self eestem to begin with, and must be the neediest person in the world, well.... that can destroy a person... espcially one that's just looking for a hand to hold after getting her heart ripped out and crushed twice in one year, after dropping out of school, and having no direction... after life drop kicked her pretty much.
Oh well.... I'm still here, somewhere under this pity party. I'm here under this melted rubble of what used to be a fun bubbly bright person.
NicHole